Ditto.

Well

I oughta be excited but I'm not.

I oughta be outside but I'm not.

I oughta come clean but I'm not.



I am utterly confused. That suddenly the world turned topsy-turvy & everything that made sense seemed to prove me wrong.


It's like, I don't know, being hit by a tree who got torn up by a wrecking level 5 tornado going through my mind. Or putting all the catchy phrases together to try & make something good out of it, which probably ends up becoming the lamest thing you've ever done. Or on a rollercoaster, that whenever it goes up you feel like barfing, but whenever it zooms down the feeling is gone, & you're never sick & tired until you get off the ride.



I need to try solving my own jigsaw puzzle of my life. & I doubt it'll ever be complete, knowing that some pieces of it are already lost.