Answer to the little diminished hope.

Is my best not enough for you?



Time after time, I'll try to give my all.
I've probably tried a thousand times to reach you.

But be it whatever, whenever, wherever, I think you've already given up.

I know what others say, that you don't reply messages, or that you reply one-word messages. & that especially with me, I think you'll probably have nothing to chat with me about anyway.

I know that you have nothing that you wanted to say to me. To you, I'm probably just an annoying & unheard nobody that is insignificant at all.


& There's really no point why I should carry on.



I'm sorry for still believing. And certainly, I don't stand a chance at all.


Here I say, I give up. I hope I really meant it this time.
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I find myself contradicting myself. Like pretending to be carefree and all fun at the other blog yet so emo here.


I'm so missing the past everynow and then. But I think I'm losing people like jieting, mingqi, fanny etc. & shih chiang, kenny, gary.

I feel like crying, yet I don't know who to turn to. Who else would be still awake at this hour.


Mervin, but he isn't the ideal person now is he.



I feel like crying even more. No one understands how I feel. & I'm not saying that because of an emo's perspective.